LEG UP

I'LL STOP RIGHT HERE. i want to make this as my status message on my facebook account, however, i feel that people will be constantly asking whys and worse, he might get what i mean and other friends who are concern. I'm pretty sure you're scratching your head on what the hell i am talking about, so for your benefit, i'll try to tell you the story but i'll just make it short.

A guy, yes a guy! ;) started texting me last sembreak and honestly, he's my crush! not super duper crush, just a slight crush cos he's cute and very friendly, anyways! you know what happens when a boy and a girl texts as in like whole day... okay so i admit, i really really like him. I'll just tell my side of story here okay?just to clear thing out, i don't want to speak for him, it's unfair. getting back on the story, well, one night, something happen that made him flip out! he just stopped texting. He once told me that im special and everything... more bigger words actually... i know for sure that he knows how i feel about him, i mean c'mon! i rarely text, only the important ones, friends in need and my parents. he is special to me. Well okay, it's his birthday today, i kinda planned something like 2 weeks ago for him. I cooked carbonara last friday with my own sweat and effort! with matching a handmade birthday card with a very heartfelt message which i was stressing over for almost 2 weeks cos i really want it to be perfect. So there, i gave it to him last friday... i never expected anything back, God knows that. But after that, he texte me like until yesterday but... it's not the same. It's true that we can never go back to what we used to, something has definitely changed.

Im sure he has his reasons and i kinda know what and i totally understand. Maybe it's just a sign from God that NOT NOW and im sure, that time will come, for the both of us. Im just very thankful that it's not yes that deep. i'll get over it! And i think he's happy. :) atleast i made myself clear to him, i really felt and that's enough for me. :)

Okay that's a lil heartbreaking so let's move on! christmas is coming up! im so effin' excited! especially the one with blockmates. we'll be having one hell of a party! drinksss!!!! dancing!!!! bingo!!!! HAHAHAHA. i'm also planning to suggest and have a booty-shake contest and a dance-off, that would be interesting and super fun don't you think? ;)))

P.S
i'll share pics some other time with my other entries, im just too lazy now sorry :)