OH MY. im such a lying little bitch who can't keep up with her promises. and i have such a bad mouth im so sorry! i'm just so dissapointed with myself cos i swore that i'll be blogging, update this, feed my blogspot with lots of stories and you know, more. However, i wasn't able to keep it. im such a promise-breaker-loser! anyway, here i am again, trying to keep up. my last entry was last dec. 1o 2009, and today is march 3, 2010. almost 3 months. alot had happened! good ones and not so good ones. but all memorable!

I don't have the liberty to recall everything cos it's just so many. (in my personal point of view) hahaha :)) so let me just blurt out some things that's bothering me and keeping me pre-occupied for the last days.

1st up, ACADEMICS.
well, it's march, as we all students refer to as the HELL MONTH. upcoming finals, deadlines, paper dues. UUGGGHH, it's excruciating. To be completely honest, i'm so bummed right now, i don't want to do the thing i was ought to do earlier than i suppose to so i will not cram, however. I'M JUST TOO LAZY to do it. hahaha! i'm so funny i know! i'm a total nonsense! but but but, so far, no failing grade, no deadline missed and report that wasn't able to deliver properly soooooo... so far so good eh? don't worry, i won't mess this sem up. i need to have a good grade for the evaluation part for the shifting thing. i'll be functioning well soon.

2nd, AMERICAN IDOL.
my gosh! i'm such a fan. i don't miss a single episode so far and i'm sure i will not! ever ever ever cos i have a HUGE crush on one of the contestant. CASEY JAMES <3 he makes me kilig and BLUSH everytime he appears onscreen. and the moment he sings... he makes my heart melt, seriously! and the body, the smile and the face, C'MON! HOTSTUFF MUCH! okay okay, i'm calm. *inhale-exhale* aaaaahhhh... better. i love you casey james. i'll be your biggest fan forever. :)

3rd, DIETING.
uuuuggghh. i can't enumarate how many times i failied doing this. i've tried all sorts of diet. after 6, no rice,water therapy, fruit only diet, name it i've done that! but you know, it's just so haaaarrrrd. I LOVE EATING! i blame this stupid slow metabolism. i don't even eat rice anymore, mostly just fruits and oatmeal cookies. Maybe i just really have to work thrice as hard as the others cos of my built, i should exercise during weekend which i do, whenever i feel like it. i do occassional runs and walks on the tredmill. i sometimes do some sit-ups and push ups but i think i won't be able to do that for a few more weeks. why? secret! hahahaha :) okay, i just really need to control myself in the eating part and be more determine in the exercise, in conclusion. wish me luck!

4th, lack of love life?
it's been 8 months since my last relationship. it's not that i'm not happy it ended, it's for the better but... i really miss holding hands, warm hugs and sweet kisses from somebody very special to me. i do eye someone at the moment but im pretty sure nothing's gonna happen soon. i'll be counting years for that matter. maybe i'm just jealous to those who have a happy healthy love life. yeaahh, i think that's it. haaaaaayyyy... i just don't know what to do anymore, i miss having "special sweet moments" anyone? im available. want to know me better? c'mon let's give it a shot and be friends. hahahaha desperate calls for desperate measures, but this is not one of those, just teasing! hahaha. i trust God, i know he'll unravel my mystery guy in the right time.

5th, this guy i'm eyeing, is it worth it?!
this is the guy i'm telling you about. the guy who ditched me. hahaha! not so much of a good impression huh? okay erase. he's really great, a guy with a good heart indeed and very responsible! but every once in a while, i'm sorta having doubts. doubts in myself and in him... but knowing me, i will still take this shot as long as L-O-V-E stand a chance in this situation. but too early to say! i just have to pray. :) but so far, i like talking to him, he cracks me up, he's so funny and amazing!

that's all for now! sorry if i have the lamest life ever. but dontcha worry, maybe this is just a phase or, maybe, i have a fabulous life and just haven't realized it yet?hmmmm... i think the second one will do. ;) okay til my next blog! nyyyyyttt :)